So, me and Jess just spent like an hour playing the pokemon card game. It was so full of win it's scary. So I felt the need to make a request that people bring their pokemon cards/decks back to plymouth so that we can dork it out and have an awesome time over all.

so...uhhhh, there isn't REALLY a point to this post.... just, I haven't talked to many ppl over vacation yet...I don't see yall on gchat, and i hate the goddamned telephone...so....uhhh...hi....i guess...oh and also




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yea....this spam brought to you by: Alex

Ok, here's the deal...I'm poor. I owe my dad 200 bucks, i need 250 to take a test to be able to teach leaving me with....well not a lot. So if you get a gift from me, it's prolly gonna be weird and wacky. I dunno who I'm going to see this break so message me if you know I'll see you so i know who to get gifts for. but anyway, you may get something weird from a bag of marshmellows to a book. so dont get your hopes up for something awesome, cause you'll be disapointed when you unwrap a pack of pokemon cards...and nothing else.

So I know this is gonna be a kinda lame/ depressing post...but it needs to be said.

Anyone who was considering getting me a gift for Christmas, please don't. I am hurting for money right now and am going to have to pay for fall 09 semester basically by myself. In addition I really really want to cosplay Dante from Devil May Cry (although obviously if I don't have the money I won't) But the moral of this story is that I won't have the money to get people anything, so please please don't get me any gifts, I wouldn't feel right getting something when I can't give back in return.


Big sad....

...ahem... *clears throat*


FUCK THIS BET!!!!!

So...I haven't updated in 5 weeks according to livejournal so i figured I would....not that i have anything particualarly interesting to update with.

I've come to develop a serious hatred for the Plymouth book exchange for hiring me and Niki with the promise of at least 30 hours a week. last week they gave me 8 and Niki 6. we both quit. The boss there is a bitch and I can safely say with 100% honesty that I hope she dies. she is a terrible person in so many ways. she does  ashitty job raising her kids, she does a shitty job dealing with her employees and she's just...so...angry. I know i can get angry sometimes, but this bitch is angry about EVERYTHING.

In lighter news I've been writing lately. working on a project I like to call "Knitting with Michelle" and I really really hope that i force myself to finish it, because it's fun and theraputic to write.

lets see, about 4 weeks until school starts...roughly, and to be honest it can't come soon enough, I actually really really miss being at school. I also need to just get away for a day or so to get away from everything, for the repetative grind that has become my summer. I also need to go to the gym more.

also, don;t eat the funky colored beef.

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so ummm....*shifty eyes left* *shifty eyes right* anyone have...any.......backstreet boys that they can upload for me?....

....I am ashamed...

also Rachel can i get that disgaea ost?

k thx bye

Dear Insomnia,

Fuck you.

Fuck you with a watermelon.

Fuck you.

Lots of love,

Alex


heres an advance warning...since I'm very likely getting little sleep tonight, I'm probably going to be a "grumpy bear" and be very short tempered and/or extremely emo tomorrow. I would like to apologize in advance for this, and I suggest avoiding me if i display such characteristics...


p.s.

fuck you insomnia

Edit: it's starting already. I feel like I'm going to explode and cry and God...I'm just confused. I'm really sorry for always bitching...especially about what I'm about to bitch about but I'm just feeling especially weak right now, so I hope yall will excuse this momentary uber lapse...

in my insomniatic night i was, of course, surfing facebook, when I go to to the friends list and see under Natalee's status it has been changed to " is stressin beyond belief, has not slept, but has an amazing guy who makes it all not seem so bad."

and I just wonder....I love how I wasn't even given a fucking chance. She fucking ends it within 6 hours because she "knows she'll end up hurting me" and then runs to some other dude...so what, she's not afraid of hurting him? Was I just not fucking good enough...fucking christ im exhauseted and pissed...and misspelling every fucking word I write.

Also, I get pissed at myself becasue I know that I shouldn't still be hung up on this...but I am...because I think too much and all that bullshit...but jesus fucking christ....how the hell am I supposed to take that..."I don;t wanna hurt you" basically meant what..."I dont think your good enough for me?" "I don't like you?" "You fucking smell like yak?"!!! christ...all i ask for in life in honesty (ok I ask for a shit ton more than that but bear with me here)

I'm just so sick of this whole fucking topic and wish that one night had never happened....I guess that means that now there are TWO things in my life, given the chance, I would take back...

and I still can't sleep....

is full of win

Hey everyone,  been having a crappy night, encountered some people I wish I hadn't...


I just wanted to say (and I'm pretty sure this applies to everyone on my friends list) thank you for treating me like a real friend. Thank you for listening to me, and more importantly respecting me.

It means a lot.


I really hope yall are doing better than I am right now...



BTW check out the anime Midori Days, it made me cry....literally.

and also check out the band superchick, and more specifically the songs "Stand in the Rain" and "Hero (Red pill mix)"

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take care

I got a new haircut





It looks like shit




that is all

So I''ve been feeling like absolute shit lately... due almost entirely in part to fucked up eating scheduele, fucked up sleeping scheduel, lack of exercise, and stress from school...as a result I'm tired and depressed all the time, and have an extremely short temper (but i try to ignore that) so I apologize to all if i...kinda suck.

anyway, as a result of all this crap I think too much about being single and seeing a certain girl in particular (who, for some reason I seem to see/hear about more and more since this whole "feeling like shit thing started) gets me reall depressed and really single feeling. but i know tis only an infatuation of sorts...whioch actually kinda makes it worse

anyway the point of that previous paragraph is for some reason I've been having a bunch of dreams with her in them (no nothing dirty) and it just...pisses me off...even my subcoincious is against me!

anyway, I just wanted to bitch and keep everyone up to date as to why i may suck lately, and apologize for it...



umm...ummm....bunnies? Pyramid heads? Gunther Christmas songs?

I dunno...trying to end this post with something awesome.

SO i think my computer has some sort of spyware or something on it...and I'm pretty pissed off about it.

What's annoying is that in the bottom left corner of my screen theres a little yellow icon with a "!" in it that keeps popping up a messages that says "warnign your computer is infected blah blah blah." then if i click on it it opens some anti spyware crap called Awola...only problem is this Awola thing scans but doesnt get rid of the spyware unless i pay them money


my question is...does anyone have any idea how i can get rid of that little yellow triangle symbol? becasue it doesnt go away and keeps popping up and making annoying pop-up noises...

or does anyone have any good anti-spyware software i could have? I've downloaded 2 so far and neither worked.

song is fantastic...

that is all

First off I wanna say that the Anime "Beck" is amazing, and that Moon on the Water is my new obsession.

other than that Pyramid head is fantastic...lack of sleep isn't, nor is thinking too much, but knitting while watching Bleach is...

with out further adu, here is my ganked Meme

I know I only really use this journal to complain and emo...but i guess it's a good way to get my feelings out, and better I cry here than bitch in real life...get my feelings out now ya know? so read if you feel like it...

Basically I feel really lame right now for no real reason. I came home from a pretty fun night of gaming (early on it was way too off topic but, thats to be expected =) ). And I wore my Sora costume with Pryamid Head's head becasue it was gaming clubs Halloween night celebration thing.

Si when I cam home there were a fuck to of people in the blair basement kitchen hanging out (as always) and they asked about my costume and shit, and like I explained...and I just...felt like a lame shithead. Not becasue I was wearing Sora stuff, fuck no, I'm not ashamed or embarassed or anything...but more so like...because...fuck I dunno how to explain it. It was like they asked questions and after they were done I had nothing to say and left. Like I just felt lame as shit....becasue I'm not good with people who aren't already my friends...and I hate it. And then (sometimes) when I do talk to people (this mostly relates to girls in my classes who I think are really really pretty) I feel like I've accomplished something great...but what the fuck have I accomplished? Nothing to really be proud of.

Christ...I guess my insecurities are getting the best of me tonight, I;ve been really tired today, maybe that's a part to it. It's really frustrating actually. Right now...its not really a "pity me I'm single" feeling....it's more like..."I will never be able to talk to ANYONE!" kind of feeling.

Heres a semi example. Over the weekend I went to Jeff's (I think anyone who reads this by now knows that Jeff is my brother, so I don't need to keep saying "my brother"") girlfriends place. he and her went out to do some shit for like 2 hours, so I was there with her roomate and sister. Her sister stayed in her room and that was fine. But her roomate came in and we talked a bit...but it felt like...when Jeff and Brittany( If i'm spelling your name wrong, which I prolly am, I'm sorry, it's late and I can;'t spell) came back it felt like the air was just lifted so much. I mean I know I met the roomate just that day...but it felt like...I could only really offer more to a convo, once there were other people there. And thats my big fear in general...maybe not towards my friends, but for people I'm working on meeting....I suck by myself, and NEED someone there to, in a sense, hold my hand.

then again, I know all of this is just em thinking too much and over analyzing...so bleh...

also...is it ironic that whil I'm writing this, on the right hand side of the screen there is an add for a sailor venus cosplay?


one final note, if you read this whole thing, kudos, and I'm sorry you

Dear stupid loud red sox fans,

Please shut the fuck up


and die in a fire


not necessarily in that order

Ok, so i'm pretty sure I haven't done this...if I have oh well...but it's not gonna happen \very often, if ever again..so bear with me.

I'm sick of being single, I'm sick of having no confidence in that field, and I'm sick of looking a tthe facebook profiles of random girls in my classes who I think are attractive...it's creepy and not healthy. I'm sick of the fact that I dunno what to do to change anything.

To top it all off I fucking hate Roche Bros right now. They transferred one of their best employies and one of my best friends at that store. Fucking assholes..



that is all.

I wish I wasn;t such a little fucking bitch. God damn it I'm fucking pissed, and I'm getting sick of my own goddamned bullshit.

I'm going to take a nap, when I wake up I may delete this or not who the fuck cares, I've held back all my emoness on lj it maystay.

I'm so fucking fed up with so much shit